I had my first mammogram last Friday. Dr. Walker suggested that now is a good time to start and get a baseline for comparison as I age. I hadn’t thought too much about it since then, just wanted to get it done before Chris left. I took the girls in to town yesterday to run errands and then to play at the mall and had a message on the answering machine from Dr. Walker when we arrived home. Basically she said that my mammogram showed a “benign change on my right side” which she said is nothing to worry about at this point. I have to go back in next Tuesday for another mammogram that will magnify the spot they are concerned with and then have an ultrasound as well. I am having a bad day, to say the least. I called Mom and Dad this morning because mostly I needed someone to talk to and Chris was at work already and IMing him didn’t really help. I wanted to know if there was a history of breast cancer in our family and to get a little support. They will be fasting for me this weekend along with the rest of my family. I am so grateful for the strong support of my brothers and sister. Susan, Brad and Dallin have either called or IMed to say they are thinking and praying for me.
All this in the midst of poopy accidents with Misha. She went to the potty and I asked her what she was doing. She came running out saying, “I sorry mommy”. I started cleaning up the mess calling for her to come back to bathroom so I could wipe her bottom. She wasn’t obeying and by the time I got to her she had wiped poop on the couch. Thank heavens for leather. I started crying, and I know they have no idea why mommy is having a hard time today. This being alone thing really stinks–just over three more weeks to go.
In conversing with Dallin, I asked him to please pray for my girls too, they don't understand why I am upset and I am not being as patient as I should. His response was: “I can do that. You know I watch my children and know that Donna has days that are better than others but I really think that they are naturally blessed and that a lot of times they are playing with angels.” I have felt very strongly the presence of angels this past week as I have been with the girls non-stop. Most evenings, I am more than ready for Chris to come home and give me a break.
Today has been hard on me, and I know that I shouldn’t let this get to me so much because the real likelihood is that it is just an abnormality and nothing more.
Update: I had a second mammogram and then an ultrasound scheduled for November 18th at 8:30 am. I dropped the girls off at Melissa Glover’s to play with Ellie and headed into Longmont. The mammogram was centralized on the specific area of concern and then immediately following that I went across the street to the hospital and had an ultrasound done. The ultrasound showed that I have a growth as well as a much smaller cyst but both are benign. Whew. I called Chris after I left the hospital and asked him to pass the information on to my family on the instant messenger on the computer as I wasn’t going to be home for awhile. I took the opportunity to go shopping on my own and thoroughly enjoyed myself. I will go back in six months for a follow up mammogram and ultrasound just to check and make sure nothing has changed or grown
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